downwards spiral

so lots of shit has been going on lately.

I have jsut got on school holidays and i havnt been able to stop sleeping.. i feel like a bear in hibornation mode.
have a few more hours at work which i am greatful for.. but still wishing i didnt have to work.
We paid the deposit on my debutante dress.. it looks amaizing and im so exited. we got the night we wanted so my pop could come down and it will be the family.. i had to figure out what to get my deb partner as a present and i settled on a wine pack.. hope he will like it.

home life is very interesting.. i have had my best friend at my house for the last 6 nights. great company but it will be good to sleep in my bed by myself.. lol and chances are ill miss having her there.. she steals the blankets.
my mum is finally better... she has a illness called cyclic vomiting syndrome... basiclly every now and again something snaps and she throws up for about 10 days... frustrating but after 10 years you learn to live with it.
she is slowly learning how to get better faster and to not take everything out on us when she gets better and everything isnt perfect.
i guess she is learning at the same time as us.

well i did have a wonderfull functioning relationship... but then it jsut started spinning out of control.. we kept fighting and he would apologise but only if he had a excuse to go with it.. and when he got mad he would say shit that was just not needed.
so we fought last night and he wanted me to just forget it all happened and i cant.. people cant jsut forget everything every time they fight. i need to talk and deal with it but he didnt like that so it carried on and he started getting more angry and childish so then we broke up today.. deep down i know he was a wonderful guy but we were two different and didnt see much the same way so we were doomed from the start. so im now single.. and feeling like shit.

anyway thats all i have for now.. not much else to talk about...

i wish i could get a decent night sleep and jsut a fresh start.