*sigh*

well relationships suck.
friendships suck.
school is going no where.
and my mum is sick.


i havnt posted in a while cause i thought nothing had happened worth talking about.. lie i jsut didnt notice it till now.

me and my boyfriend keep having little fights which is doing my head in, and the sad thing is that its over small shit.

people who i thought were my friends arnt. they are all uses.. people are jsut animals.. they keep you around untill they dont want you then flick you off like you were never worth anything. people are jsut horrible.

school is jsut fail all together.

and once again my mum is sick which causes stress on the family.. and i end up with all the responsability. it sucks ass.

on the plus side i found a wonderful deb dress.. it is amazing..

dentist

well today was my last visit to the dentis for a while

i had to get 1 filling, and 3 salients. the salients dont hurt but holly crap the filling did.
i hate needles and they scare the shit out of me so we tried without it.. that didnt work so she dosed me up with some anistetic.. she finished the salients and went to move on with the filling.. it was still very sensitive so she did another dose of anistectic.. she gave it a few minuets to let it set in. my lips cheeks and gum's were all tiningling and going numbing so she tried again but i was still getting sharp pains. so she gave me a 3RD dose.. and yet it wasnt numbing enough so i jsut had to try and deal with it..

so now im still recovering.. my lips cheek.. well half my damn face is numb. and it will be a few hours before im normal again


damn dentists.

schooling.

ok so here is the deal.
i am studying

year 11 legal
year 11 business management
English
maths
cert II Vet hospitality
and year 12 pyschology.

i am doing well in all my class' but Business management.
i cant understand my teacher, he is berly there and is wasting our time.
my work load is heavy at school and my co-ordinater thinks so too.
she gave me a option to drop business management because it is nothing like year 12 business management. so i will be droping it. thank god i have more time to study and deal with all my harder class'.

so a little more relife. i hope i ace my classes.

relatioonships.

are hard work and sometimes unfair
but like fuckkk!

city adventures

so today i took the train into the city
and met up with my best mate tiffie =]
we looked around at all the fansey shops for deb dresses.
but being a sunday it was all closed.
so we stoped for lunch and then decided to walk around some more.. we came across
a hair house wearhouse and it said pircings. i was look cool and we wnet in side so
i got the top of my ear pirced.. i know not a real big thing but it was good and enough for me.

=]

ultra sound results.

well on friday after school i got my ultra sound results.
the doctor said everything looks normal but because of the pain he has
chosen to send me to a specialist to get a second oppinion because we have done
everything we can by a gp. the doctor did say that there was a posability it was something..
i cant remember exactly what it was called but the only way to diagnose it is by opperation.
so i guess i will know more when i see this specialist.


hmmmm

tears

they sting my eyes
as they leave painfill streaks
as they cut there wya through my eyelids

fuck i hate crying.

and i hate u bastards that make me crack to the point of tears.

you all are pathectic and are worth nothing to a functional world so jsut go die.